and the rains came down and the floods came up

Sorry I have not posted a blog in awhile. I am still here, just incredibly busy, this whole single parent thing is not so easy. I am hanging in there, I have my moments where I dont know how I can do this for 8 months, moments where I feel like I am just going to break down and cry and my moments where my heart aches to be held in my husbands arms, but all in all I have been too busy to think much about it. Landon has been taking care of me and rubbing my head and telling me "Its okay mommy, you miss daddy? you sad? its okay, I love you." So its hard for me too look or act sad around him too much. Primary is keeping me busy and the boys are defenitely keeping me busy. The day after Noah left Landon woke up with diahrea everywhere and then had accidents all day and then started throwing up at nap, so I literally hit the ground running that morning and did not sit down until both the boys were in bed for the evening and every day since then has been the same. I will get on here and type more and give some more updates when I have a few minutes or when life (or rather if life) slows down a little bit. Thank you all for your love and prayers and for all your help. Noah has been layed over and pushed back so many times that he has still not made it to Balad he is in Qatar for the next few days. Please keep him in your prayers. And to any of you who life near by, my son is acting for male time, or play time or bonding time ANYTHING!!! he wants me to play 24/7 like daddy did and I cant do that and take care of Braddoc and keep the house going. I play as much as I can (which is a lot) but he still just wants more time. He really wants someone to play with, so if anyone wants to play just let me know.